As i read... here are a few lines that hold my thoughts...

"If you can Dream it, you can do it."
"If you have a question, then go find the answer."
"Never make a desision, until you have to."

How am i ??

It hasn't been easy to stay positive through this phase.
.. A big part of me wants to run away to far-far-away land.
.. TORN between what is right and what is wrong;
.. Moving on with an enthusiasm that has lost its spark.

.. Still learning about acceptance and letting go.
.. 'Agreeing to disagree' (i see no choice; slowly giving up)

Now
... realizing that its real.
... can't forgive myself yet.
... confused.. dono how i fare emotionally. There are ok days and bad days.
... forcing myself to socialise.
... a part of me acting when am with other people.
... forcing myself to appear strong.
... Keep REMINDING myself to blindly start doing everything that i once loved.
... and for now, trying to learn the art of pretense. To do what is 'rare'.

Run!! Run!! Run!!

" There is no problem so big it cannot be runaway from "
Haha... there sure are some people who abide by this quote so religiously !!
Well.. all the best folks!
Keep on running then... you may find what you want... But then,again! You are very much used to running away, anyway!! hehe!

overstep?

A step outside
and the birds are in fear.
A tiny whisper 'hello'
'WwoooshhhH'... they all fly away.
Wonder if its possible to undo the overstep.
If i was only aware then..
Now, probably a lifetime.

can't stop laughing !

Well.. my cousin and i were having one totally funny-stupid conversation, letting our imagination go wild and she asked me about the strongest bird. I was like... can't say.. but could be the Ostrich and the Harpy Eagle. We started googling and chanced upon this pic... hehe!!

http://www.indiastudychannel.com/gallery/92-Strongest-Bird.aspx

am sure this pic is absolutely modified... but just cudn't stop laughing ! Well.. connecting this pic to the most hilarious converstaion we were having, it became even more hilarious ! I could just imagine my cousin, sitting in the US and rolling with laughter too!

At the end.. she said.. 'MY! now am very very curious about these eagles!'

wonder 'bloom'

i wonder...

where does a little bud get all its energy from, to bloom ?
to open up, to stretch every petal and face the world...

What if that energy went totally missing... ?

What-if ?

There are no 'what-if's'
..trying to put that into my head.