It hasn't been easy to stay positive through this phase.
.. A big part of me wants to run away to far-far-away land.
.. TORN between what is right and what is wrong;
.. Moving on with an enthusiasm that has lost its spark.
.. Still learning about acceptance and letting go.
.. 'Agreeing to disagree' (i see no choice; slowly giving up)
Now
... realizing that its real.
... can't forgive myself yet.
... confused.. dono how i fare emotionally. There are ok days and bad days.
... forcing myself to socialise.
... a part of me acting when am with other people.
... forcing myself to appear strong.
... Keep REMINDING myself to blindly start doing everything that i once loved.
... and for now, trying to learn the art of pretense. To do what is 'rare'.
