As i read... here are a few lines that hold my thoughts...

"If you can Dream it, you can do it."
"If you have a question, then go find the answer."
"Never make a desision, until you have to."

How am i ??

It hasn't been easy to stay positive through this phase.
.. A big part of me wants to run away to far-far-away land.
.. TORN between what is right and what is wrong;
.. Moving on with an enthusiasm that has lost its spark.

.. Still learning about acceptance and letting go.
.. 'Agreeing to disagree' (i see no choice; slowly giving up)

Now
... realizing that its real.
... can't forgive myself yet.
... confused.. dono how i fare emotionally. There are ok days and bad days.
... forcing myself to socialise.
... a part of me acting when am with other people.
... forcing myself to appear strong.
... Keep REMINDING myself to blindly start doing everything that i once loved.
... and for now, trying to learn the art of pretense. To do what is 'rare'.